A year and two days ago, I was writing about the side effects of SCD and how much I was worried about starting my new job. Here I am a year and two days later, in my bed, unable to sleep, and enduring and pushing through some side effects of SCD.
I’ve talked about “pain-somnia” before, and just like before, how it pushed me to write the past, it is also my motivation for this particular post as well.
I was finally able to get out of the house and go to work today, but as life would have it, I had to do so while in pain. I was home for days, on a forced house arrest. It started getting to me in various ways, and as mentioned previously I had to walk and talk myself off the edge. After being stuck home for almost 19 days, the thought of getting out of the house , even though it is still very unstable and unsafe out there, got me overly excited (kinda sad when you think about it, but that’s the sad reality!).
My excitement got the best of me. It then started pouring, needless to say, my first day back at work was not heading in the right direction, but I made it!!!
The pain started while I was sleeping, I stayed in bed with my heating pad trying to not think about it. Upon waking up, I realized I was limping a bit and my hips were hurting more than they usually do when I wake up. My first thought was that the rain was coming so I ran to my meds.
I finally made it to work (super late). Few hours later, the pain started knocking at my door. I was furious, because I was finally out and here I was, on the brink of having to head back home. I was determined to push though and stay at work. And with that I missed my “work-niversary”, but I was not confined to my four walls, and these days that’s a win in Haiti.
While I lay there, unable to sleep, in pain, reminiscent of my first year back in Haiti and at work, my smile doesn’t last long because I’m faced also with thinking about the sad reality that I’m currently living in Haiti. I’m glad I pushed myself to make it to work today despite the way I was feeling because I’m not even sure if I’m going to be able to get out of the house in the morning.
Smile, it could be worse!!!